Sesuatu dalam hati

Dah lama sangat tak update blog..tiba-tiba harini rasa nak menulis pulak..kenapa ye? Ntahla..mungkin waktu ni terasa macam tak pasti apa sebenarnya yang menghantui perasaan ni. suka? duka? well, seriously..tak tau..tak pasti!! mungkin ada masa rasa happy..ada masa tidak.. hurmm..ntahla, tak tau nak explain macam mana..cuma yang pasti..jauh sudut hati ni memang percaya kalau ini yang terbaik untuk semua.. bila semuanya seolah dipermudahkan, then..there you go.. itu lah kurniaan yang terbaik buat kami daripada Allah untuk masa ni..

Oh ye, by the way..sekarang keluarga kita dah berempat.. dulu bertiga.. syukur alhamdulillah selamat semuanya.. dah 7bulan dah pun usia puteri kedua ni.hahaha..

March 24, 2011, 22:45 CET time @ Oslo Ulleval Hospital, Norway..

Baby oh! Baby..

Lama dah tak jenguk blog ni..macam biasa..kemalasan melanda walaupun kadang2 ada je benda nak diluah and cerita nak diceritakan.. tapi dek kerana ibu kamu ni tersangatla rajinnya..maka kambuskan je la benda dan cerita tu dalam benak ni..hahaha... Oh, harini 22hb Mac 2011, ikutkan EDD ada 2 hari je lagi adik kamu nak menjengah..tapi sampai sekarang still takde sign apa2.. ibu ni sebenarnya dah tak larat bebeno nak bawa perut ni tau.. lebih2 lagi waktu tidur malam.. nak beralih tempat pun masyaAllah..perit betul rasanya.. tu belum kira lagi nak bangun gi bilik air.. aduhai..berpimpin2 kat dinding2.. and there was a night bilamana air mata ni tumpah jua akhirnya dek kerana mengenangkan rasa dan perit yang ditanggung waktu tu..bukan perit apa..cuma terasa macam dah tak larat sangat2 nak lalu.. kalau boleh nak bersalin dah..tapi tetap takdir Allah tak tertulis begitu..

Malam tadi pun ibu tak dapat tidur lena..macam gak la malam kelmarin..asyik terjaga and rasa tak selesa.. ada masa contraction datang.. tapi jap gi pergi.. ingatkan nak sampai masa dah..tapi tak jugak.. tapi memang mengharap kalau sakit dan kelahiran adik ni biarla di siang hari.. lebih mudah ibu dan ayah nak uruskan perjalanan ke hospital and kamu sendiri.. kot tengah2 malam or pagi2 alam jenuh gak la.. huhu..

Semalam ada check up.. hoihh..ntah kenapa la pulak gula ni naik.. mungkin ke sebab sejam before check up tu ibu bantai makan lempeng yang berkeping2 cicah ngan sambal sardin..atau mungkin ke 2 hari before tu ibu dok bantai minum air gas sebotol kecik? ntahla..cume yang pasti esok, kene ke klinik untuk glucose test.. minumla air gula tu (tak pernah2 umur kene minum) pastu dudukla diam2 kat klinik tu 2 jam.After that baru nurse amik blood sample and buat test.. haihh..macam2.. BP pun kat boardner line je ni..tapi doc kata still normal and ok.. nothing to be worry katanya..yelah tuan doctor!! oh yer.. scan jumaat sudah memang dah ibu jangka kalau adik kamu pastinya lebih sihat dari kamu..tapi..bila dengar tu adeh..risau ibu tau!!! tapi takpela..berfikiran positive.. in term of weight, mmg adik besar.. but in term of size.. kita tunggula nanti sebab ibu pun takde lak bertanyakan hal tu haritu..papepun ibu redha je la.. doa banyak2 semoga semua baik and selamat utk ibu dan adik kamu..insyaAllah.. :)

Baby oh baby..bila agaknya kamu nak lahir ni?? kakak dulu awal 2 hari.. ke nak share birthday date ngan ibu 25hb ni?? takpela baby.. dah boring nanti keluar la ek.. mintak tolong siang hari ok.. :)

tengok kakak ni..ntah apa2 ntah dia nyanyi..buat ibu mengantuk adala..huhu..

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E.M.O.S.I

Now ni ibu tengah menangis..apsal? sebab ibu layan perasaan sorang2.. ntahla kakak..tak tau la, part of kerenah awak yang macam2 now ni, emosi ibu lak jadi terumbang ambing balik.. huh!!! stress!!

curik gambar dari en google.. :P

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Words to remember...

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

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Rindu..

Baru pas cakap phone ngan acik ida and mak ngah kamu. Borak2 tadi, terus rasa nak balik KL.huhu.. beradik perempuan ibu semua dah ada kat KL.. ibu je la takde.. masing2 dah pindah dari JB n Muar.. before ni cuma Mak Ngah je kat KL. But now, Acik Wati n Acik Ida ada skali.. mencari peluang lain yang lebih baik di muka bumi Allah ni.. Rindu lak rasanya pada kemeriahan mereka. Selalu kalau dah berkumpul adik beradik memangla gelak sakan. Ada je lawak2 ntah hape2.. hehe.. Beradik pompuan ibu 4 orang.. lelaki pun sama.. and ibu perempuan bongsu.. sejak dah besar2 ni memang close la. Dulu masa kecik2, waktu ibu belajar kat asrama memang tak berapa nak close. Mungkin sebab jarang jumpa. Tapi bila masing2 dah besar, especially after ibu berkahwin and ada family sendiri, then we are getting closer to each other.. ;). Mungkin sebab ada banyak bende nak cerita and share kot kan.. tu yang bukak ruang ntok kami lebih rapat..

Gambar ni waktu majlis kahwin acik rezal.. berdiri dari kanan gambar: cik wati, mak ngah, ibu, acik ida n k.ain ( anak pak long kamu)

Hurmm..tetiba takde idea nak melalut.. hahaha..okla, bubye sayang.. muaahhhsss!!! Jaga diri, sembahyang and iman kamu.. love u..


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Epidural

What is it?

It's an injection into the small of your back, using a curved, hollow needle. A needle with a curved tip goes between the vertebrae of your back, and into the space outside the coverings that surround your spinal cord called the epidural space. A fine tubing (or catheter) is passed through the needle and then the needle is removed. The fine catheter is taped up your back and over your shoulder. The anaesthetist injects a local anaesthetic (similar to what you would have at the dentist) into the catheter to numb the lower part of your abdomen. Generally, your legs and feet go numb as well. You can't feel your contractions any longer.

Sometimes, the catheter is attached to a small pump, which allows the anaesthetist to control how much local anaesthetic you have, or the pump may be primed to release a small dose of the anaesthetic every so many minutes.

How does it work?

It works in just the same way as a local anaesthetic works when the dentist numbs your mouth before extracting a tooth. The anaesthetic deadens the nerves which are carrying pain signals from your womb and cervix.

When should I have it?

Theoretically, you could have an epidural at any point in labour, even in the second stage when you are pushing your baby out, although a spinal anaesthetic would probably be offered in that situation.

Most people, however, choose to have an epidural when the cervix is about five to six centimetres dilated and the contractions are getting stronger. If you are as much as eight or nine centimetres dilated, you may be told that it's too late for an epidural and advised to manage without because your baby would be born soon.

What are the advantages of epidurals?

• More than 90 per cent of women get complete pain relief.

• Your mind remains totally clear.

• Can help to control high blood pressure.

• Can put you back in control of your labour, and restore your confidence.

• Epidurals are more sophisticated than they used to be and you might find that your legs and feet are not completely numb.

What are the disadvantages?

• May find that you are numb down only one side of your body or that a small part of your tummy has not been anaesthetised.

• May make you feel very shivery.

• You have to stay in bed.

• You need to have a drip in your arm. This is because epidurals make some women's blood pressure drop which may seriously affect the flow of oxygen to the baby. The drip is a safety precaution so that, in an emergency, the volume of your blood can be quickly boosted to bring your blood pressure back to normal again.

• You will probably have a catheter into your bladder. An epidural means you can't tell when you need to empty your bladder, so this has to be done automatically for you.

• You might feel very out of control. You have three tubes going into your body and you have to be told when to push if the anaesthetic hasn't worn off by the second stage of labour. Your obstetrician and nurse midwife effectively manage your labour for you.

• Epidurals can increase the length of labour, especially the pushing stage.

• Your baby's heartbeat will be monitored continuously, using a transducer strapped to your abdomen, or a smaller transducer clipped onto his scalp.

• There's a greater chance of needing to have a forceps or ventouse (also known as vacuum) delivery because epidurals often prevent the baby moving into the best position to be born. Also, it often stops you from feeling the urge to push in the second stage of labour.

• If the epidural needle goes beyond the epidural space, there will be a leakage of cerebro-spinal fluid after the tubing is taken out. This fluid buffers your brain and even a very small leak will give you a terrific headache. This is usually treated by taking a small amount of blood from your arm, perhaps the day after your baby is born, and injecting it into your back to seal the hole made by the epidural needle.

• Some women have problems passing urine after having an epidural.

Any useful tips?

• Keep very still while the anaesthetist is setting up the epidural. You will be on your side or sitting on the edge of the bed, leaning forward and curled up in a ball. Concentrate on your breathing. Breathe in deeply through your nose and sigh out slowly through your mouth. Hold your husband's hand and keep eye contact with him.

• Discuss with your obstetrician and nurse midwife the possibility of letting the epidural wear off for the second stage of labour when you are going to deliver your baby. Being able to feel the contractions will help you push more effectively.

• If you cannot feel any sensation of pressure during the second stage of labour, and/or if the epidural weakens your muscles, you may not be able to push effectively during the second stage. Slowing or stopping the infusion of epidural medication will help you regain some sensation and/or muscle strength. Additional doses can always be re-administered should the need arise.


This articles has been taken from babycenter.com


Note: Ibu takde plan nak amik epidural ntok kelahiran adik kamu nanti. Macam mana ibu boleh bertahan dari segala macam rasa sakit and serba tak selesa tu waktu menanti kelahiran kamu dulu, InsyaAllah..ibu boleh lalui untuk kali yang kedua Semoga ibu diberikan ketabahan dan kesabaran dalam meniti detik waktu itu untuk kesekian kalinya.. Doakan yang terbaik untuk ibu dan adik kamu ye sayang.. ;)


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B.O.R.I.N.G

Boringnya rasa!! tolong2.. apa nak buat ni???? Hati meronta2 nak ke mana2.. tepu dah rasanya dok kat Oslo saja.. tapi dah 32weeks.. means tak boleh dah nak fly ke mana2.. uhukkuhuk..

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What's on my mind 8...

Hurmm..ntah apa ibu fikir now ni.. tapi terasa macam dah kematu.. hish..stress plak tetibe!!! oh angin.. tolongla bawak kita2 ni ke tempat lain.. huhuhu..


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Perancangan yang seakan diredhai oleh Nya..syukur!!

Kejap je masa berlalu. Terasa macam baru semalam ibu buat pregnancy test.. tup2 cuma tinggal 9minggu je lagi.. huh...cuak2!! few months back.. if tak silap 16/07/2010 ibu buat pregnancy test.. dalam pada ye tak ye hati ni berteka teki.. ibu buat gak.. 2nd time pregnancy test for me.. (1st time dulu sah2 la masa awak kan..) ikut naluri rasa macam ada.. tapi percentage ntok rasa hati tu tak seconfirmed masa kamu. memula ingat nak tunggu ibu nye due period.. tapi sebab tak sabar sangat.. buat gak.. samala macam kes kamu pun.. ebfore period due ibu dah buat test. Berdebar2 gak tunggu result tu tau..hahah..macam 1st time! ekeke.. and alhamdulillah.. rezeki Allah nak bagi.. makanya adala benih yang mula bercambah dalam rahim ibu ni.. terus je ibu ambil gambar then email pada ayah..tup2 ayah terus je call.hahaha.. tapi ayah ni tak romantik.. bagila bunga ke kan.. huhu.. but, it's ok.. sebab tau ayah bukanla seromantik tu.. pastinya ayah pun happy dengan berita tu.. macam tak percaya..tapi itula realitinya.. ;)

sedikit flashback..

setahun yang sudah... which exactly during winter 2009/2010.. ada ibu dan ayah sembang kalau2 winter 2010/2011 nanti ibu pregnant.. Nak ikutkan waktu tu, hati ni 50-50 ntok menambah ahli keluarga.. antara bersedia dan tidak.. fikir nak sebab nak kamu ada kawan.. dan macam belum bila fikir nak berdepan dengan segalanya ntok kali yang kedua.. huhu..and kalau nak try conceive tu memang dah plan dah after balik cuti ke msia on jun 2010.. tapi tu la.. ibu ni jap ye, jap tidak..hahaha..so, ada sehari tu..masa tu kita teman ayah gi skating..(last winter ayah dok ralit skating..this winter sebuk snowboarding) seloroh ibu cakap kat ayah.. kalau conceive june 2010, means ibu takde la chance nak skating.. cuma ayah dan kamu je la.. ibu cuma jadi penonton setia di luar ring.haha.. so, nak dipendekkan cerita.. even after balik dari bercuti kat Msia Jun lepas pun, hati ibu masih berbelah bagi.. sampaila ada satu hari tu, lepas dari ibu selesai sembahyang asar.. tiba2 hati ibu terus bulat berkata ' okla..insyaAllah ibu ready ntok lalui semuanya ntok kali yang kedua'. tapi waktu tu ayah kerja..so bila ayah balik dari kerja..ibu cakapla kat ayah tentang rasa hati ibu.. syukur hati ibu dah tetap dan terbuka waktu tu.. dan alhamdulillah sangat2.. perancangan kita umpama mendapat berkat dan diredhai Allah bila mana sebulan lepas tu which is 16/7/2010 ibu disahkan mengandung.. terima kasih Ya Allah atas redha yang Kau beri ntok perancangan kami.. kebetulan waktu tu kita pun nak gi bercuti ke Stockholm, Sweeden..lepas ibu declared kat fb yang ibu pregnant which is 3 month after that..ada gak suara2 nakal kawan ibu sangkakan kalau benih ni hasil percutian dari Stockholm.. walhal takde pun..sebab waktu tu kita semua dah tau ibu dah pregnant. cuma takde bgtau sape2 pun lagi.. terasa macam terlalu awal algi ntok dikhabarkan berita gembira tu. sebab baru 4-5 weeks cmtu.. tapi, 2 minggu after dapat tau ibu pregnant, ada ibu call nenek johor.. dalam pada bersembang tu adala ibu selitkan ntok khabarkan berita tu.. response nenek?? 'Alhamdulillah....'. sebenarnya waktu tu acik rezal kamu pun baru gak tau kalau dia bakal jadi ayah.. so, maksudnya pregnancy ibu kali ni lebih kurang sama cam cik nurul kamu.. masa kamu dulu sama ngan cik ida which is syahmi la yang sebaya kamu now ni.. memang lebih kurang jerk.. 2 minggu lepas syahmi lahir..kamu lahir.. dia September 2008.. and kamu October 2008.. insyaAllah kali ni, anak cik rezal feb 2011, dan adik will be somewhere on mac 2011.. Talking about Mac.. insyaAllah kelahiran adik nanti sama bulan ngan bulan kelahiran ibu.. and the best thing that may happen is if we have the same DOB. haha.. ok, tak mau cerita lebih2 hal2 bersalin ni.. nanti ibu cuak!! macam baru 1st time.. tapi ntahla..mungkin pengalaman lalu kot.. well, cuma mampu berdoa agar semuanya dipermudahkan untuk ibu, adik, ayah dah kamu.. insyaAllah..




(Gravid tu maksudnya pregnant yer!!hehehe.. Kalau ikutkan pamphlet yang datang skali dgn digital tester ni, 2-3 weeks tu means dijangka persenyawaan dah berlaku. to be exact, dah masuk minggu ke 5 la waktu ni)


Hurmm..okla manja..ibu sambung lain kali la ek. Even tak tau pun lain kali tu ntah bila..hahaha.. anyway, sampai jumpa lagi.. jaga diri elok2 yerk..jaga sembahyang n pelihara iman kamu. jadi anak yg solehah juga kakak yang terbaik untuk adik2 kamu.. Sayang kamu selamanya..



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Sakit pinggang!!

Now ni dah semakin terasa beban kat pinggang if berdiri lama2 tau.. kesian ibu..huhu.. kadang2 kalau masak tu, sampai terbongkok2 sebab nak menahan. abis tu, kalau ibu tak masak siapa lak nak masak. takkan kamu kot? ayah? Now ni memang ayah banyak hulurkan tangan pun. tapi kesian gak kat ayah.. balik kerja letih kan.. tup2 nak kena masak pulak.. tapi, kadang2 kalau ibu tak larat sangat.. terpaksala ayah bukak langkah kat dapur tu. mujurla ayah kamu memang jenis boleh masak2 gak.. tidak, tak tau la camne.. bukanla ada kedai makan mak lijah pun kat sini kan.. huhuhu.. So, biasanya weekend memang definitely ayah akan prepare breakfast la.. kadang terus sampai ke lunch. tapi ibu tidak la zalim na mintak yang merepek2.. yang simple2 je.. sekarang ni pun memang takdela ibu nak dukong2 kamu.. time nak makan pun ibu mintak kamu naik and turun sendiri dari highchair kamu. ibu cuma sediakan kerusi lain ntok kamu panjat ke highchair tu je. but of course la dalam pengawasan ibu..takde nak menempah penyakit lain pulak biarkan kamu sendirian..huhu.. ;) kay sayang..nanti2 jumpa lagi ek.. ibu dah kepanasan dah ni.. walaupun snow dok merata kat luar nun, tapi sejak akhir2 ni kepanasan lak ibu rasa.. especially time tido malam.. dah takde nak berselimut2 dah ibu ni.. kadang sampai berpeluh.huhu.. apa2 pun..jaga diri elok2 yer.. jaga sembahyang dan peliharalah iman kamu.. ibu sayang kamu..selalu!!

credit to encik google ntok gambar ni. ;)

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